Why mothers don't die

Tell me child why you

Want balloons.

And then you cry

When they burst

With a bang.

There was too much breeze 

From the window;

It was the western wind

That broke them;

The yellow then the green.

Tears as big as them

Shook the earth.

The breeze too stopped

For a while;

Till you got a white

One this time.

And what if this too goes

The same way child?

Will you again flood the room

And send me afloat to

The town for more?

Balloons don't live

Forever,

Who will tell the child?

So mothers don't die

Till every child has a balloon

Each time they cry.

You never came

When I woke up you were gone

Your robes soiled lay

On the floor

Waiting to be washed 

With sun beams

And the froth of the western breeze

 I searched everywhere

For you

No one answered

My cries echoed back to me

Then I saw you again

And you said you never came

As you never were gone

For you were the breeze

And the sun shine

That kissed all that was seen

Even the robes

I mistook for you

When the sun hid for some time

Make me not a tear drop

 Make me not a tear drop 

That will flow away

From your eyes;

Nor your breath that would 

Leave as it came;

Nor a shadow 

That is yet away from you;

Nor anything that

Must live away from you;

Indeed unmake Me.

And yet I ask not to

Be free,

But to be so bonded

To you that I never

Separate from thee.

Did you leave your fangs in heaven?

Did you leave your fangs

In heaven

Or hid them under the doorsteps

As you came hearing me cry? 

And your lion hues did you hide

In your eyes that now look

Muddled like an ocean

Of golden tears?

And your bloody nails

In the shoes you wore

As you came in a guise

You thought I never

Would know?

Do you now recline

In those eyes

Which like two boats

Row me to your arms

Faraway in me?

My angel of light

My angel of light
Kind light
Bathing the night of my being
Each ray glimmers and falls
Like a hand kind extended
To bless
Each ray like your foot
Stretched
For me to touch
And be blest
My angel of light
Your wings of silver
Sweep away the
Dust of dark and grime
Till I shine.
Bruised and cowering
In the womb of dark
In fear
Your light covers
Me embalmed
Till I know no pain
And my tears
Fall like pearls of light
To adorn your path
As you float and flow
An ocean of love
And fill my little puddle
Till it is fast asleep
On your breast
A moon full
That never ebbs
And my eyes blind
See nothing but
Your light
In a night that
Never ends
A night that is all light.

I went into the darkness

I went into the darkness
Into the womb of fear
And what bliss it was
To be so close to you
I stepped into the icy stream
Of my tears and let the torrent
Sweep me away
And I was all the time
In your arms so warm
I was lost in the woods
I lost the trail
And yet what joy
To find you there
Picking up the thorns on the way
And leading me home
 I would fain be lost
Be lost again
For I know you are watching
Somewhere from the bird nest
Or from the million twinkling
Eyes that look down
From above
Or the hidden beauties
That bloom right under my torn
Feet as I wander lost and in pain
Or some kind soul who
Would forsake a day to
Make me smile

Beginnings

When day breaks
Little does it suspect the end
That waits


When a child is born
His laughter knows not the
Pain that awaits
As he grows each day

When he takes the first step
He scarce sees the grave dug on every side

When  a heart is won
The bliss of love
Is blind to the scorn
that awaits its turn

To smother beneath
It's feet every memory


of joy

And make the loveliest face
Stir dread
And angels turn ghouls

Hence stay away
Keep your face
Veiled as ever


Never say a word

keep me in guile
Blinded by your light
If that is your wish
Let it be so
Let not my day dawn
Let us stay apart

Or I lose you forever